Today was a rough day for us. Jackson was not listening and it bothered me more than it normally does. We had a few "fights" and I lost my temper a couple times. I am having a difficult time with my little boy. He is very stubborn and refuses to listen to me. Then I lose my temper and yell. I know I need to be better than he is, I just don't know how to get him to do as I ask him. From getting out the door, to getting back in the door, to not trying to pick up the new kitten by his tail. I am simply at a loss. He is stubborn and has a temper himself. It is making life interesting. And the potty training. Oh my. He does great at daycare, at home we have accidents every 5 minutes it seems, get him cleaned up and he pees again. The poop thing is certainly not happening. And I'm tired of it. So today he wore a diaper all day because I was not going to deal with it any more.
I hoped that having time off with him this week would be great, that we would have a lot of fun, get the potty training sorted out. But now I'm not so sure. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and my parent's are coming to visit. The house is a disaster, I was supposed to work on it this weekend but just haven't, I'm too exhausted from dealing with this child. I don't know what to do. It is certainly clouding my thoughts of having a second baby. So I got a kitten.
My poor Mea passed away on December 5th. She took a bad turn and was unable to really walk so I took her in and said goodbye. It was difficult, and I'm not sure at all that Jackson gets it. We got a kitten last weekend, he is adorable and loves Jackson. The kitten's name is Joshua, Jackson named him, and he is an Abyssinian/Siamese mix. He is super playful, friendly and cuddly. Exactly what I wanted. Perfect for our family, and getting along with my other pets. Now if I could convince Jackson to not try to carry him around by various body parts, we'd be all set.
Money wise, things are going fairly well. I am spending more than I'd like to be, but within budget. I am hoping to pick up a bed frame for Jackson's bed this week, and get a headboard and night table for him this week as well. Hopefully all for $200 or so. I'd like to get his bedroom sorted out, I'll need to take the change table out and move things around a bit but it should be good. I was going to wait until we move but if I can get a good deal now then I might as well. The only thing I'll need then when we move is a bigger freezer, and possibly a treadmill.
I hired a dog walker, he comes 3 days a week to walk the dog. It is money I should not spend but in winter we are not getting poor Riley out for any exercise and it's making everyone crazy. So this should help. And once I'm used to spending the money, it should mean I can afford a maid once I move. Though my rent will likely go up. And I will still need to find a place. But so far things are on track, and a bigger, nicer house should be in our future. If only I could declutter the house, I may need to hire someone for that too! Or convince some friends to come over and help.
And I do still love being a mom, I really do. My son is driving me batty and today was a long difficult day, but in general he is a good boy. I just wish he'd pay attention to me and listen. I wonder if I didn't talk for a day if he'd even notice, I really don't think he listens to me at all.
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