We've had a bit of a rough time. I ended up putting the Xbox away, and he hasn't been allowed to play much more than an hour a week or less since. He is still on his tablet an awful lot, but he also is just generally being much more agreeable and we are getting along better. School seems to be going better, right before the year wraps up. That is good news, he is even getting along with his math teacher! Which I never thought would happen. She is leaving at the end of the school year though, which is too bad. Now. It takes Jackson awhile to warm up to teachers and get along.
After all the struggle, the school psychologist evaluated him. I have a meeting Monday the 25th to get the results. After the extra questions she had for me I suspect they think he's at least mildly autistic. I'll find out details at the meeting I guess. I would say I suspect he has some problems, obviously, but he speaks well, is intelligent and has friends at school. He is just lacking some social maturity, and he needs some help with learning a few things.
The changes since taking away the damn box have been remarkable though. It's amazing. I have my kid back. If we hadn't had such a rough year with his behaviour, I probably would have found a way to have another baby. But when everything was so hard, I just didn't see how I could deal with the language, the violent behaviour, the trouble, and be pregnant or have a newborn. I know that I will have regrets because of this, the whole thing. I feel like I should have noticed something sooner with Jackson's behaviour, gotten him help earlier. I should have had another child much sooner, and should have done so many things differently.
As it stands, we have trips booked for August, March and December 2020. The March trip I am debating cancelling, even though I will lose the deposit, and even though I want to go. It's going to be a pricey trip, and we are maybe going to move, I'm not sure we can afford to do it all.
We are going to Disney at the end of August, and I can't wait. It will be a great trip, even though the new Star Wars land is opening and will impact the crowds. We will be able to do all the rides, check out the water parks, and try some new things. I had hoped to lose some weight before we go, but as we are not at 70 days, and I haven't, I'm thinking it won't happen. But my step counts have been good and I think that will be helpful for this trip. I do have some time left to try and lose more, just not sure it will happen.
As for moving, there are some new places being built right beside his school. They are rentals, and there are not too many being built with garages, but they are going to be very nice. And new, with nice features. Probably cost more than I am paying now. But I am so tempted to move. It would be downsizing, the places are smaller than this one. Which is honestly more house than we need. And the backyard is so much work. The new places have a balcony and a small front yard, but no backyard. They are right beside the park though, and places to walk the dog. With the downsizing we have a lot to get rid of. But I was planning to do that any way, try and sell some items, including a lot of toys. Since I have no future baby there is no need to keep a lot of the things. The town home I'm looking at has 2 bedrooms, which is all we need. They do have some 3-bedroom places as well, but they will cost more. Might be nice? Not sure. We'll see. Either way, they are smaller than this home.
Work has been truly frustrating. My boss is just horrible, and the project is all over the place. I am not sure I can see it working well in the end, which is really annoying. I am not sure what to do. But since I have about 7 weeks until my summer vacation I am trying to wait until that is over and I get back to find something new. I have done a little amount of looking but nothing too much. And she goes on vacation before me, so I really only have 4 weeks left of dealing with her, and struggling to try and get things improved on the project.
In happier news, I got a new car and I love it. It's tangerine orange, a Kona, and it is super cute. I just feel happy when I see it and drive it. I am so glad I got it. Still about the same payments I had on the last one, insurance came down, and the mileage is great. Very happy to have the new car. It's smaller than the last one too, so will hopefully fit better in the garage.
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