Saturday, December 24, 2016

Christmas Eve

I think I like it better when Christmas Eve is during the week, so we don't have the whole day to figure out what to do. He came to work with me yesterday, so that took up lots of time. Then today we didn't do a whole lot. There was some Christmas movie and TV watching, We had a nice dinner, one of Jackson's favourites, steak and noodles. He has some simple tastes. We left out some cookies and water, because we always leave water instead of milk. Then we sprinkled some reindeer food outside on the front snow piles. We watched Santa on NORAD for awhile, then I convinced him to go up to bed. That is where things kind of fell apart.

After reading a story, brushing teeth and settling down, he decided that what he had asked Santa for was not what he really wanted, and he started to cry. Now being mommy has an in with the big guy, I kind of felt what he said he was asking for wasn't really what he'd want. So while he is getting what he asked for, he also got a cool hockey table set that he will hopefully like. I did promise, so he'd go to sleep, that after his trip, we'd look at getting him what he really wanted. I guess we'll see how that goes!

We are going to my sister's for dinner, and I made the wild rice casserole today to take with us. It seems to taste pretty good, Jackson was pleased. So at least we'll have that, depending on what else she does for dinner. It's always a bit of an adventure! My parents have not come to visit, they did drop off their gift for Jackson at Thanksgiving, and I bought my own from them. I have a couple things to open, but not much! The day is mostly about Jackson. For my sister's families, I got my nieces gifts, but no one else. I made a deal with my sister. It always feels silly, getting gifts for her and her husband that I have no idea if they will even really like or use. And I'd rather just get gift cards, practical stuff.

I do find this time of year strange. I love the excitement Jackson has for the whole thing, but also feel like it's too much. So much stuff. I don't like the lunches out with the team, or getting gifts for people at work. I mean I like a lot of people I work with (not all of them of course!) but I don't consider most of them really friends. It's weird to me, I guess I am just not that type of person. It also always makes me a little sad that I don't have a bigger family. I love that we go to my sister's for dinner, but I wish my own home had more people in it. I don't really think I want a spouse, at all. But a couple more kids? Perhaps that would be fun. I hate that we watch shows about families, and the kids all fight and then they start getting along, It's always so sweet. Ah well.

We got news at work about our back pay, apparently we will be getting it starting January 11th, which is awesome. Because I took some unpaid leave I may not get mine then. I hope I do. That extra money would be awesome on the trip but even without it, we will have a great cruise. Everything is sorted and paid for, well the big items are any way. A couple more things I will pay for this coming week, and then it will just be the excursions, which I can decide on once we're on the ship, based on how much money we have and what we feel like doing. We are doing  a swim with sting rays thing in Grand Cayman, that is a little scary, but should be fun. Costa Maya will be a beach day. and Cozumel is the one up for debate, inexpensive beach day, or fancier beach day

Time for bed I guess, Santa won't come unless I'm asleep right? :-) Plus kiddo will be up extra early I'm sure.

Monday, December 12, 2016

A 7-year-old

My baby is 7! It's crazy and he's not a little boy any more. Well he is but he's not. He had a great birthday party at the local pool, him and 7 of his little friends. The pool part was great. There were two lifeguards in the pool with the kids, and they had a lot of fun playing games, jumping off the diving board, using the obstacle course. Then it was an hour in the party room. Which made me very thankful that one of the dads had stayed. Eight boys was a little much for me. They ate snacks and took turns getting dressed. One of the boys pulled the emergency alarm in the bathroom. So that was fun. We ate cake, though getting the boys to sing was difficult. And then Jackson opened his gifts, and boom the party was over. I was relieved, it was done! Phew! Fun times but stressful for me.

Winter has arrived in full force. I am at home today because I just can't face the drive in. I hate winter, snow, all of it! When I retired I am moving south. No one seems to believe me but I am looking at options that are good for ex-pats. So far Belize is the top of the list, party because they speak English, and are a former commonwealth country. Also on the list are Costa Rica, Panama and Equador.

Given the terrible weather lately, well it's not really terrible, it's just regular winter. But in any case it has pushed me to book a cruise. For January 15th. Like a month away! I can't wait. Jackson is excited but scared to fly. We'll be doing a 6-night cruise, and one night pre-cruise since we like to fly in early. Hate to miss the boat! The cruise has 3 ports, which are all new to us, and two sea days. Jackson is looking forward to trying the rock climbing again, and going ice skating. Since you know, we don't do that here! Silly kid. I booked a guaranteed cabin so we won't get it assigned for awhile. We got early dining. And I've already booked one excursion. One port we'll take a cab to the beach, and the other one I'm debating which all inclusive to book at, Can't wait! I really don't like winter, snow, cold... ugh!!

My doctor has increased my thyroid medicine by a bit, to bring my numbers down a little more in case I do want to go ahead with trying again. I haven't gone for the blood work yet. My cycle has been incredibly messed up. And I am very unsure of what to do. I think perhaps I am done at one. As much as I would like another baby, I do not look forward to the work, the lost sleep, the extra expenses. Money is a big part of it. I am almost done with all daycare. The savings would be great, and perhaps worth an extra trip every year.

Work has been going well. I am working on a big project with a lot of responsibility. I am enjoying it, though it feels like a big much at times, and I wonder about people. I have some time off at Christmas, and I am looking forward to that. I would like some time to myself to figure things out, decide what I want. In order to advance at work I need to learn French, I've been taking part time classes at work. I do feel that in order to really learn I will need full time training, which can take a year. The problem when doing the training is that you can't take vacation, it's quite far a commute, and it's very intensive. I am not sure I'm quite ready to do it. I will continue what I'm doing and hope to do it later I guess.

Christmas is coming. I am mostly done shopping, just need to get stocking stuffers. And something for my parents which has to be mailed soon. I should be able to go Wednesday or next weekend at the latest. Our tree is up. The Elf has so far remembered to move on a daily basis, though I am not as exciting as many families in being creative on what to do with it. Ours changes shelves and location. That's it. But we are boring like that any way!

Friday, October 28, 2016

Nothing much to say

Since my appointment a month ago I have been taking my synthroid, which doesn't seem to be doing anything, and charting. My body decided it wasn't going to ovulate last month which also meant I haven't had a day 3 yet. So I'm still waiting! I will go get my TSH rechecked today as it has been a month on the medication, and I only have 10 pills left so need it checked to see if the dose needs to change (hoping they up it!).  Otherwise I have just been waiting. I do find it somewhat ironic that I finally decide to move forward and my body decides to skip a month. Is it a sign of things to come?

I think my day 3 should be around Nov 7th now, give or take. Which means I'm out for November since there is no way to get the blood work back in time for that month. And since December is kind of "shut down" month I guess I am out then too! I now have to continue waiting. But it does give me a chance to save some money back up.

I had some saved for this but then my cat got sick. And rushed to the vet for xrays, blood work, and then 2 types of medicine plus a laxative and special food. This my youngest kitten, the one my son loves the most. I think if it had been ones of the others I might have waiting longer to see what would happen. In any case, it was crazy expensive and now I'm stuck saving again! But, my union finalized our contracts so we have 150 days to get the raise and back pay, plus we should get the silly $700 signing bonus by the end of the year, hopefully in time for Christmas shopping. And the extra pay out we'll know the numbers and details by end of January, with decision needing to be made on that by the end of April (I think?). I already know what I'll be doing with my payout. We have the choice of taking it now or waiting until we retire/leave the job. I'll be taking it and putting it directly into my retirement savings, avoiding having it taxed, and then able to use it for the down payment on a house.

Of course Canada has come up with some new rules for buying a house and I think it limits my mortgage amount, though I also think it's probably still in line with what I was hoping to spend any way so it shouldn't be too bad. I am still torn over the "new vs old" and "change school?" questions, but have some time any way. End of July I guess is when I will be able to move forward. We'll see at that point what is on the market, where it is, and how my journey to baby 2 is progressing, or if it's a lost cause, or what.

Jackson is still doing well in grade 2. He's a smart kid. They split his split 2/3 class into a grade 2 and a grade 3 class, so that is good. He has been forgetting a lot of stuff at school though, and has already managed to lose a coat, one mitten and a few lunch items. The coat bothers me, since it was only worn maybe 4 times. The weather today has turned cold and we had some snow, so hopefully he will keep his coat on when he's outside from now on.

His swimming is going well too. He was jumping into the deep diving pool last week, and enjoying it. I hope he continues to do well, I want him to be able to swim the length of the pool, then he can choose to stop lessons, or go into diving or whatever he wants to do. I am not sure if I will put him in January lessons though, the weather is so cold and I find it hard to get him dry enough to avoid ear infections and other illnesses. We'll see how he's doing and his interest level though.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

First Appointment

Well. The doctor seemed nice. He told me at 41 my chances with IUI are about 5%. If I do IVF it goes to 15-20%.  But because I have a child, and have been pregnant before he thinks my odds are not too bad. Now the fun tests start. I have to get blood work done on day 21, which is next week. Then on Day 1 I call and have to schedule two ultrasounds, one to check my insides and the other the HSG. I also then need day 3 blood work, and they will recheck my thyroid. Apparently I also need STD testing, which kind of makes me laugh, I mean it's been like 7 years, or more? something like that any way! Oh well. And a urine test because he didn't do swabs to check for a couple things. Then I have to speak to a psychologist before I can use donor sperm. I sent a message to my insurance to see if that is at all covered. Fingers crossed!

I am also now on synthroid, which the pharmacist seemed to think would make me not tired, lose weight... yeah I'll believe it when it happens! I am supposed to take it separate from Calcium, Magnesium, Iron, which sucks since I take those at breakfast and dinner now... so I'll need to rejuggle those supplements. And I do hope they help.

Luckily the clinic is really close to work, so going at lunch for blood work will not be an issue. The ultrasounds will be a little tricky, but I'll manage. I think the HSG I will take the day off for, or at least half the day if I can. I've heard it's ok but also that it really sucks, so going based on it will suck, I'll take the day off, take advil, and cross my fingers.

When I asked about how long this all takes he said a month. Wow. I know it'll be about 3 weeks to get all the tests done, I doubt I will catch the October cycle, but November? Hmm. Crazy. Once I got to see the doctor, things seem to be moving.

Oh, he also expressed concern because of my hernia, which is where they would deal with an ectopic, if that should happen. I am not too worried about that, though I have read there is a higher chance of those when over 40, but he seemed to think it was only 1 or 2% so not a big deal.

It was kind of funny him talking about things in such simple terms, given the reading and research I've done. I may be new to the office but I'm not new to the terminology and details.

Now I have some next steps. And really need to let go of one more trip, which makes me a little sad. I know I will be able to take both kids in time, but I had hoped for one more with just Jackson. I know I could do Disney, but if I am pregnant at that time, it would be silly since I can't do a lot of the rides.

Any way! Everything is on track, I will start the thyroid meds in the morning I guess. I'd do one today and then tomorrow morning but I don't want to mess things up. I'll need to go for so many blood tests, Ugh. And all the rest. At least I've already had a look at the sperm bank catalogues and narrowed down my choices, as long as they are available when I need them I have a couple choices. That part seemed easy. I guess I'm not putting as much thought into it as I could?

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Regular days

Well Jackson is back at school, and I am back at work. All in all, I prefer vacations! It feels like I didn't have any time off. I think that's always the way it goes. I'm already planning the next vacation, though I am not sure what I'll be able to do. Since I want to have another baby, all my cruise plans have to be on hold. Zika is just too scary to deal with. I may be able to do a Disney trip as it is not there, but we'll see I guess.

I go to the fertility clinic on Tuesday. I am taking the whole day off, silly probably but I suspect I will have a lot to think over after the appointment, though I won't have had most tests done by then I am sure the doctor will have some information for me just based on my age and history. I hope he'll treat my thyroid as well, or I will have to go back to the family doctor for that. Someone on one of the forums I frequent posted this link to a calculator that gives you your chances of success, according to that, by 3 tries I should be at 40%, which seems high, but I cross my fingers that's right, or even better.

Work has been irritating. I work for a large government department and there are lots of divisions and teams. No one seems to get along or have the same end goal. We are working on a couple projects and I sent emails to let other areas know as they could benefit, well it blew up with so many people wanting to get there hands in there, and it should be so simple. But of course now it's not. And it bugs me! I do not seem to get along with people sometimes.

My kid seems to be similar. His teacher had to talk to me already. Apparently he's been touching other kids on the playground, so we had a chat about that. She also mentioned that in group work he sometimes has a hard time with kids he doesn't know well. She said he's very intelligent so when the other kids take some time to "get it" he gets frustrated. Yup. That's my boy! He is doing well in the split class I think, but I am concerned he will be bored next year. Hopefully it will work out. Who knows, we may be in a new school by then any way.

Speaking of homes, I am still torn on what to do. I'd love a brand new home. But the location of the one I like is not the best. So then I could go with a different builder, and a better location. But then what I want is all upgrades, so the price goes up and up. I could go with an older home, but then I want something that is perhaps further from the city, with a bigger yard, and I am not the best at yard work and such things. I guess it doesn't really matter too much now as I do have to get the money first.

All in all, life goes on! The weather is cooling off so that is nice. Jackson has busy weekends with swimming lessons, and playing with the neighbour girl. Evenings get to lazy, especially by Friday when we are both tired. And all the tv shows I like are slowly coming back with new episodes. Thank goodness I can tape them since bedtime seems to last longer than ever. But once asleep he does seem to sleep all night. And he's getting himself dressed in the morning after I wake him up. That's a good step.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

First day of Grade 2!

I took Jackson up to school this morning. We walked, he wasn't too happy about that but he managed. It isn't far but he'd prefer to ride his bike. We don't have a lock for it so I didn't want it left there all day and no way I could ride it home!  He saw Nolan as soon as we got there, but we didn't see any lists. Eventually a crowd of parents went back around the corner of the school so we followed and I saw the grade 3 & 2/3 lists... there was his name! He's in the 2/3 split phew! We met his teacher and she noted that he's in daycare so she knows where he goes at the end of the day. He wasn't too impressed with the kids in his class. Bradley is in there so that's good, and Scott (smartest kid last year according to Jackson). He also knows at least a few of the grade 3 kids. He was a little worried that he was going to have to learn the grade 3 stuff already, but I told him to just focus on the grade 2 stuff. I am sure he'll do great and I am actually glad he'll be pushed a bit. I hope his teacher sets up a twitter or blog or something like the others all have.

He let me cut his hair Sunday night, it looks not bad. He picked out his clothes this morning. He is really excited to start wearing his new school clothes, but they are warmer and it's supposed to be hot today.

First day of Grade 2! 

Monday, September 5, 2016

Almost back to school

Jackson starts grade 2 tomorrow. He let me cut his hair last night. I should really take a class or something because I am not the best at it! But he looks cute, with a few stray hairs I missed :-)  He isn't too excited about it, I guess school is old news now. Right now he is at the neighbours playing. She was over here yesterday, which then led to a massive melt down and fight when I wouldn't let him go play again. I am enjoying the grown up tv channel. But wondering if I should go get him soon. I just don't want to face the fight.

His backpack is ready for the new year, along with a fancy pencil case and all the new supplies. I read the September school newsletter and see there will be a 1/2 split, a fully grade 2 class and a 2/3 split. I am not too pleased. I hope he is in either the 2 or 2/3 split. I know my son, he will be distracted with a split class but at least in a 2/3 split he will be distracted by harder work and perhaps push himself harder. I guess we will find out tomorrow. The teachers are all new to him, I guess they hired some new ones. The one he thought he'd be getting is actually teaching kindergarten this year. I also hope the one boy I do not like isn't in his class. I know the rest of the boys will not be a problem, he has lots of friends. Just that one boy.

We were at the park yesterday and there is a little orange and white cat. Very sweet, followed up around, not fixed. Jackson says the cat has been around the school for awhile now. I am sure he is very lost, but haven't seen any ads for him. Of course being an unneutered male he could be from miles away, they do wander to find girlfriends. If I had the money I would have brought him home, or rather to the vet to get a check up first. I do want another male cat, and orange cats have always been a soft spot for me. But I wanted to wait until we move, and I didn't want to pick up a stray! But oh do we both feel bad for the little kitty and wanted to bring him home.

Jackson doesn't know I am off the whole week. It's my last vacation week and I look forward to it. I need to start going to bed earlier and be ready to get up earlier too. I have an appointment with the nurse Wednesday and will need some blood work later in the week. Otherwise I plan to declutter, pack up some toys and hopefully work on the basement. As fall is quickly arriving, now is the time to load up the garage with garbage to toss. Once winter hits we like to park in the garage so there is less room to fill it up. Garbage pick up is only biweekly, but I should be able to get rid of some stuff. I should have been doing it over the holidays but it was hard with kiddo around. He likes to be in the same space as me.

I really wish I could plan a trip. I am trying to be responsible, and know that if I am buying a house I shouldn't spend the money on a trip. Plus of course the zika thing, everywhere I want to go it's there and I do not want to risk my future child. Why of why have I waited so long to do this? I should already have two kids. The message to anyone waiting for the perfect time, there isn't one, do it! I have to remember that even if we can't go on a trip for a few years, I can travel when I'm older too. And I will.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

September already!

I can't believe August is already over. Time just seems to fly by. I'm not sure what we did all month. I know there were some parks, way too much shopping, a quick trip to my parent's, and a few daycare days. School starts on Tuesday, but I don't go back to work until Monday the 12th. I have some time off while kiddo is in school. I do have an appointment with the nurse practitioner for my women's check up (and hopefully a tetanus shot which apparently I need), and I have to go get a follow up TSH test for my thyroid. Tomorrow kiddo goes for the last day of summer daycare. He has moved up to group C, from group D. Even though he is the youngest in the grade they moved him up because it meant so much to him. I hope it goes well. He doesn't want to go but I feel it's important to get back into "school" mode a bit. Tuesday I will take him to school to see who his teacher is, and then he'll go to daycare after and I'll pick him up from there. Last year he was sick the first day, looking back now I think it was nerves. He won't be doing that this year.

I switched his bed to the bigger double from the twin he had. The first night was rough but he likes it now. I had to get some new sheets for the bed, and would still like another fitted just in case, we have a bunch of top sheets for it for some reason. He sleeps right in the middle of the bed. I like it for bedtime, since I sit in his room for what seems like forever while he settles down. And of course it is much more comfortable for story time. I was worried it would take up too much space but it fits well. The twin is in the guest room now, and there is actually room in there for a crib to go with it, should that be needed.

His fish is doing well. I had to really clean the little tank after our trip to my parent's. I put in a weekend feeder which was way too much for the little guy. I don't think he really ate any of. I would like to get a timed feeder for him, there is one on amazon I will look at getting. Of course now (as I tend to get obsessed with ideas) I'd like to get him a big proper 5 gallon tank with filter, heater, and all that. But I will hold off. I'd like to wait until we buy a house but who knows when that will be!

Speaking of homes, we have looked at quite a few model homes. One set was really nice. We looked at the big homes we can't afford. But even the basic townhome had a model we really liked. Jackson's room would have a cheater door to the bathroom, which he loves, and I could get the laundry upstairs, as well as a really nice master en suite and fancy kitchen. The best thing is the basic finishes are the granite I love (undermount sink!!) and hardwood on the main. I really like the homes, and the builder seems to do a great job, with nice finishes. But of course it's at the top of the budget, and in an area of town where I lived as a kid but haven't been to as an adult. It would be a further commute, not sure about the schools but that would likely work out ok. As I sit here watching tiny homes on HGTV. Yeah. I'd love one ha ha. But I know it won't happen until I'm retired I'm sure. Then who knows.

Jackson finished his swimming lessons, passing with flying colours, and moving on to level 3 starting mid-September. It will be interesting to have lessons once a week. But at the end of level 2 there were doing almost all the swimming required for level 3 so I am thinking he will pass. We shall see I guess! There are 13 lessons, it will be every Sunday morning. I am hoping he'll go for a haircut before lessons get too far so his hair is easier to deal with after the lessons, coming home with wet hair in cold weather is not a good idea.  I am so proud of him for being able to swim so well already though. A month ago he couldn't swim at all. Now he can do 10+ meters on his front, and at least that on his back and side as well! Crazy.

He also learned to ride his big boy bike with no training wheels. That was fun. Not really. His bike broke basically, the chain fell off, his training wheels fell off. I bought him a new one, the old one was bought used for $20. Any way. The new one, I couldn't get the training wheels on so I told him he'd better figure it out. We went out and he did it. For a few meters any way, then he got wobbly and wouldn't try any more. I kind of fixed the older bike and he took that for the last bike day, but the training wheels really broke, didn't just fall off but fell apart. Tonight I took them off and off he went. He can ride! Then the bike broke, the wheel got all stuck and weird, so tomorrow I put the bell on the newer bike, and he'll be riding that from now on. Phew. What an adventure. He should have been able to do it before but he is quite cautious.

I really want to plan another trip. But I can't. With Zika, and buying a house, we just can't afford it, and I can't afford to get that virus if I do manage to get going on baby 2. Which I keep wondering about. I think I am worried it won't be possible and am bracing myself for that. I also worry it will take forever, and I will waste money on trying. I wonder if I will have to take time to get my thyroid working properly, and hopefully lose weight with that, and then there is testing, blood work, who knows what else. And of course I'm 41 already. Why oh why did I wait. Well I know why. I knew I wanted another baby when Jackson was under 1, but of course knew I had to wait and "pay back" at work so was waiting for that. Then it just seemed expensive. Then I had my gallbladder issues and before you know it I was turning 40 and thought that was it, impossible after that. I thought I was ok with it, that I could let it go. But I can't really. Not without at least trying, or finding out if I am too old, and my eggs are all gone.

Friday, August 19, 2016

Homes, houses, choices

The good news is my union finally agreed to a contract, so I can expect a fairly substantial chunk of back pay, and a payout deal which I can use as a down payment to buy a house. Bad news is once I get the money, it has to sit for 90 days to use the home buyers plan. So ultimately I will most likely be in a position to buy next spring/summer. Should I?

I ask this because I am sitting here listening to the guy in the backyard fixing the fence, which I think was likely a big expense. The deck here also needs fixing and there have been a couple appliance issues in the time I've been here. The garage door has also needed work. So. Owning seems to be a pricey thing, beyond just the normal buying expense. Do I even want to do that? I mean I do want to buy, I think. I know it's an investment in the future, in setting up my retirement, though I could just save the money to begin with I suppose.

Then if I am going to buy, what do I buy? and where? Do I stay near where we are, in the same school catchment? It is a good school, Jackson has a daycare space there until he graduates the school. There are a couple daycares around for younger kids as well. I know the commute to work, how long it takes, the best ways to go. The problem is the homes. Many, like the one I rent, are older. Perhaps in need of some work, some updates to make them how I would like. Perhaps needing new fences, or new roofs, There are a couple new home builders in this area but buying new here is so much more expensive than if I move to a different area. A new area means new school, finding new daycare, a new commute.

New homes are being built in other areas for a lot less. A new home means I can choose what I want, in terms of layout, finishes, but I'll need to add on air conditioning, possibly fences, maybe some appliances. And then we change schools. New areas are popular with  younger families, so the classes could be bigger in size than what we have here. I know daycare of little ones won't be an issue in a new area really. The new build areas are also being done quite nicely with lots of park spaces, walking and bike paths, even the new recreation centre we like to go swimming at.

I am also a little bit torn as there are things I want in a new home, but some depend on if we have a second child. And I won't know that for a few more months. I will have an en suite bathroom off the master, I would really like hardwood or at least laminate on the main level, and granite in the kitchen. I would also like a second family room type area to eventually use as a "boy cave" for Jackson when he's older. Right now he doesn't want to spend time away from me. Which I find weird as I remember having a play room and loving being in there on my own just playing with toys. I also want an open space so kids can be playing while I'm in the kitchen but I can see them. I want some nice windows for the cats too. Jackson wants a balcony, which is not really going to happen I don't think.

Why is this such a difficult decision? I guess because it's about the most expensive purchase I will ever make?

Friday, August 12, 2016

Vindication and Frustration

I got a message from my doctor (or actually his replacement as he is on paternity leave until the end of the year). Apparently all my blood work yesterday is ok, except my thyroid. I was very happy to see I am not diabetic (always a concern with my family history). I was not too surprised by the thyroid results, since I noticed my BBT results the past month are below 97F and apparently that is a sign of low thryoid. The funny things is I went back over my old charts, going back to 2011 when I started, and it has always been that low. So for at least 5 years I have had a low thyroid. I should have had it checked sooner. I always just thought I'm fat and tired and that's the way it is. Even when I have tried to lose weight, it is a real struggle. And now I know why!

My doctor is recommending I get my level rechecked in a month, so I will do that before I go back to work. He also said I could leave it for the fertility clinic to manage. Which is fine as I'll have all my tests and things done by then. I think this could affect my fertility so I do want to get it taken care of.

I am a little frustrated with the place that took my blood though. They gave me this PIN so I could get to check my results, and of course it doesn't work. So I called the tech support number and the guy on the phone was less than helpful. He said he would "send it to IT" which always means it won't be fixed to me. So I will give it a bit of time, and then pay $5 to get them from the doctor's office. Frustration! Annoying. I'd like to see the results just to be able to compare and see where I am borderline on things. My relief is currently outweighing the frustration though. For now.

In terms of my plans, given the thyroid results I will be adding selenium sooner than I had planned, I was going to take it only when I was actively trying as it is supposed to help with implantation. I have read that it can help with a "sluggish" thyroid though so I will start it now. I am also going to try and give up eggs and dairy, possibly gluten as well. I'll start with 30 days, see if I can do it and how I feel afterwards. I do recognize that I may need to be on some medication but I will hear about that in 6 weeks or so.

Jackson is at daycare for a few hours today, which is a nice break for me. I got the grocery shopping done with no "help". I was pretty good at sticking to my list, and restocking a few things we ran out of. I'll go get him in another hour or so. He wanted to go play volleyball. He has been watching the olympics with me, and is quite into a few of the sports. So far I think he likes swimming best. Which is fun. Canada won a gold last night, when I told him the morning his only comment was "why don't the men win!" So I told him they were waiting for him to be ready to swim. He got a funny look on his face, so cute. I wonder if he will want to keep going with swimming since he's enjoying it so much right now. I have told him he has to decide what he wants to do in the fall, swimming, gymnastics, basketball or nothing. He needs to decide soon though, Sign up starts this week.

Thursday, August 11, 2016

Week by week

This is Jackson's second week of swim kid level 1, and he has already passed! I am just so proud since he did the younger level about 5 times and couldn't get it. I've got him registered for level 2 to start next week, since he's on a roll we'll keep going. I only managed to find a low ratio class, and it's an hour later than this one so we'll see how that goes with it being at dinner time basically. We are on holidays though so can have a good snack before we go. He is really enjoying it, and with watching the Olympics has been trying out his swimming techniques from the races he watches.

He's been watching a lot and Canada is not doing that well. He gets very invested and quite upset when they don't win. I think it's a good thing to learn to deal with, but it is hard to deal with. I'm not sure why he gets so upset by their losses. We spend time talking about they are doing their best, and it's amazing they are good enough to get to the Olympics at all. Not sure it's helping but I hope so!

Since it has been 3 weeks from when my referral was sent I called the clinic to see if they got it and when I can expect to hear back. They had it and she booked my appointment for September 27th. 6 1/2 weeks away. Ugh. Oh well. I'll be back to work by then but it'll have to do. It gives me 6 weeks to keep up with getting healthier. It would be nice to lose a few pounds, but that may not happen.

I have managed to go for my regular blood work, and the ultrasound for my possible hernia. I have one more appointment in early September, then it's just waiting for the first appointment. I have heard good things about the doctor I've been referred to, which is nice to see. He is apparently quite nice and very good at answering questions. I know I will need tests, and beyond that not sure! I have been tracking my BBT again, how boring is that. It is lower than it probably should be, but it does show I've ovulated, so that is great. I have a bunch of OPT's and pregnancy tests I bought last year on amazon, they don't expire for quite a while still so I imagine I'll get to use them.

It has been really hot and humid here, all thoughts of walking around outside are not happening. I should be working out at home I guess, but I feel so ugh from the heat and humidity. I've been better about my eating habits, but the exercise just isn't happening this week. I did a few days of 10k steps last week but none this week.

I will say not having to worry about work at all has been very nice. I am very happy to be able to take all this time off in the summer. It is very nice to be able to fully relax, and just not do a whole lot.

Monday, August 8, 2016

Vacation week 2

One week of vacation is done and we are on to week 2. So far we've had more good times than bad but still have some moments when we both lose our tempers, and I should know better. I have been trying to keep calm, make things more playful. Sometimes it works, but I know I need to be in a good frame of mind to begin with, if I am tired and it's hot and losing it already, I have a hard time switching to that playful mood. Getting better though, I think any way!

He's been doing swimming lessons, 5 down, 4 to go. And he seems to be getting it! Crazy. He did one level in the preschool levels so many times. Now he's in swim kids and voila, he can swim! I elected to put him in the regular class, there are 6 kids in there. 4 boys and 2 girls. He is the youngest boy, but is holding his own and I think it helps that there are 3 other boys who are doing really well too. The two girls, well I'll be surprised if they pass to be honest. We went swimming yesterday as well and he practiced a bit and then also jumped in with a life jacket on. I still feel like I have water up my nose. But I survived. I cross my fingers he passes. We will decide whether he wants to do another set of lessons once we know that. If he doesn't I think we'll try some extra practices just us. See if it helps or not.

Yesterday we got a fish. A betta. And a tank and all that stuff. Jackson loves it. It's in his room and he's so happy to have a pet in there that won't attack his toes. We thought it was dead yesterday because it was hiding right beside a plant and not swimming around. But apparently that's what they do actually. I ordered one more plant and think we need another lower one for him too. He's very pretty, and hopefully he lives awhile! No name other than Purple Boy at this point. I'll suggest a few tomorrow and see if he goes for any. I'm still not sure why I said ok lets get a fish then. I was thinking a gold fish or something, but this guy seems easier actually. And he can't have any friends, so no asking for more fish any time soon! Honestly, I'd love a big salt water tank, but the work, the cost, the work... too much! This little guy will do. He is a bit scared of us right now but I am sure he'll figure out we're the food bringers and be happy to see us soon enough.

The plan this week is two days of daycare, Thursday and Friday. But he may go on  Wednesday as well. He misses playing with his friends since I don't play right. What can I say? I don't follow orders so well when playing. We do play games, and with some toys. We have also been doing that pokeman go thing, for fun. We don't really know what we are doing but he likes to catch them so we go for walks and try to find them. The first time we went out it was so hot. Two hours of walking, with a stop at the park to play. Ugh. I've been getting lost of steps in though, we don't walk that fast but we get the steps in and I think it counts for something!  I have not been doing the yoga I wanted to do, I'm so tired! I haven't been getting 8 hours of sleep. See I should be in bed already! But I'm not. I just want some "me" time after he's in bed, which is happening by 9, which is so late for me on a good day, so then I stay up until 11 and feel like crap getting up at 7.

I've been taking a prenatal, and added magnesium as well. It helps me sleep (also keeps me regular ha ha) and I've read it's good for pregnancy stuff. I realized I have many books on fertility and have been reading them all. Also have two more from the library on the way. I still haven't gotten a call for my appointment! I wish they'd call so this can get rolling. Shouldn't have waited so long.  I feel like I'm taking a lot of pills, and yet I'm sure there are more I could be taking. Prenatal, CoQ10, Omega 3s, vitamin C, B100 complex, probiotic, Ca/Mg/Zn combo and if we don't get out in the sun I take vitamin D as well. Oh, and now the magnesium too. I've been taking my BBT every morning at the same time, fitbit alarm helps with that. My normal temperature is low, like below 97F, and I think that is a sign of something not right. I have blood work to get done this week so perhaps it will shed some light. I suspect my thyroid is low or something. It's not like there is a reason to be really cold when it's so hot outside. And I am not sleeping with my mouth open. I did get an ovulation cross bar on my chart which was nice to see. Hopefully I am still ovulating!

I'm also feeling a bit sad. I won't be able to go on a trip this winter. Not if I'm actively trying or soon to be. With Zika buzzing around the places I'd be wanting to visit it just doesn't make sense to risk it. I will have to wait, and then travel with a baby and kiddo. I know it's possible, and I can do it. Certainly I'm not worried about travelling with Jackson any more. He knows what to do and gets it. Baby would add in a new dynamic, but I suspect we could manage something. Travel is on hold, but also held in my dreams. I do love cruises.

I think I will go to bed now. I may actually be able to fall asleep!  And hopefully stay that way all night long... fitbit is also good for tracking that, all the wake ups and tossing and turning I do. Could be worse, but at least 20 minutes a night of it. Most nights more. Oh well! Off to dreamland for me.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Ah vacation!

Today was my last day at work for 6 weeks. I am so happy to be getting a break. Jackson is also excited. I hope he sleeps in tomorrow but I know he will at some point soon, it usually takes him a few days to relax into it. He's allowed to stay up a bit later as well, for now. I will have to take him to daycare a few days. I have an ultrasound for my possible hernia, and need to get blood work done. I am also hoping to get an appointment at the fertility clinic, but apparently that may not happen any time soon. I will call them next week to make sure they got the referral.

I have told Jackson that I may need to tell him I need a time out somedays, that I like to spend time alone (on my computer according to him...) so I will need some of that when we are on vacation together in order to be a good mommy. I think he understood, and I hope I can recognize when I need that time before I blow up, rather than when I've reached the end of my rope.

I will be trying to avoid too much time on the computer and technology. I'd like him to avoid too much TV as well. We'll see how well that goes! I know the first couple days will be much like a regular weekend. It will take us a few days to relax, it always does! I do hope I can remember to allow myself to enjoy the moments. I think that the length of time off will help me with that.

My plans are fairly simple, get enough sleep, eat more vegetables, be more active. We are not going anywhere, except possibly to my parent's at the end of the vacation. We will hang out at home some, go for a few nature walks, check out the local splash pads, and just generally try to have fun.

I've really enjoyed work the past few weeks. I have been working directly for my director as his executive assistant. I think if it was a different person it would not have been as good but he is very honest, open and allowed me some free reign with what needed to be done. I like being in the know, and seeing all the parts that come together instead of just one little bit of it. I have been told I'm "in training" to be a manager. Which is nice I suppose. There is a language component I am missing, but the opportunity for language training if I can show I am ready to be in that type of position. The problem I have is I am not sure I want it.

When I got my last promotion I wanted it. I knew I could do it, and I knew I could do as well as those who had that type of position before me. I am good at it too. I enjoy it. I am not sure I would like the added responsibilities of being in charge of other people. I mean I love power of course :-) but I don't think I want the job of staying late, working from home, being tied to a blackberry, doing extra work and dealing with people who annoy me. I'm just not that type of person. Ultimately, I think I would choose my family, another child, over the extra money and work. I mean of course extra money would be nice, but not worth my happiness, my child's happiness.

Friday, July 22, 2016

Waiting plans

I messaged the ladies in my local SMC group about how long it take to get in to the fertility clinic, and apparently it can be 6 weeks. Or more. I really should have started this sooner! In any case, I can't "sit still" while I wait so I have a bit of a plan. Since I will be on holidays in one week (oh I can't wait!) I only have one more normal week before I can relax a bit. I've been good about my vitamins, and I will be eating more vegetables starting now, but my other plans will wait for vacation.

My first goal for my 6 weeks off work are to get an average of 8 hours of sleep a night. I use a fitbit and it tracks my sleep so this should be easy to tell. I hope to be in bed by 10 most nights and will get up at 6:30 (or 7) in order to do a 20 to 30 minute workout (second goal!).  Goal three is to get 10K steps a day at least 5 days a week on vacation, though since we may go for bike rides and the fitbit can't count those as steps it may not work out quite that way. And fourth goal, I will be giving up coffee. Gulp. Except that I may have an occasional iced coffee because they are so yummy!! I hope to give up the tea I normally use to replace the coffee, and drink herbal teas instead.

My hope is that in 6 weeks I can lose 10+ pounds. I will be doing a 30 day yoga boot camp, it's online so I should be able to stream it to the tv and hopefully it starts out easy enough to keep me going. I think the yoga, better sleep, no coffee and more vegetables will allow me to feel rested and healthier. I sometimes get very tired, and yet wired. I can't sleep well even when I'm exhausted. I read things about adrenal fatigue, which could be completely made up, but which makes me feel like I could do something about this.

All this should let me help my body, get good test results, and be in a good mental space to move forward. I hope this will also build some momentum to allow me to continue when work starts up again in September. Though in order to keep the 8 hours of sleep, I will have to go bed much earlier since I have to get up so much earlier.

I hope we don't take too long to get a good rhythm going in the summer, with swimming lessons the first two weeks, and our only real plans to hit up as many splash pads as possible. Lots of time at parks, going for walks, bike rides, and of course playing in the nice air conditioned comfort of home. We will probably head to my parent's place for at least a few days before the summer ends and school starts up again.

For my last week of work I need to take my lunch daily. I had bought some really nice salad dressing at a local store but for some reason between buying it and getting home I lost it! I'm so sad because it wasn't cheap and I won't go buy another bottle any time soon. I have my good old stand by but I was looking forward to this stuff. Oh well, perhaps it'll turn up somewhere. Or I'll let it go.

Thursday, July 21, 2016


I had booked an appointment with my family doctor for next Monday after work, to ask for the referral to the local fertility clinic. They called this morning to say that the doctor won't be in the office Monday so I have to move the appointment! I asked about today, and ended up going at lunch time. The asking for the referral was quick and easy, he said "I see you want to discuss your fertility, are you trying to get pregnant?" To which I replied "well I'm single so I kind of need that referral before I can try". Ok then. No problem! Now to wait and see how long it takes to get seen. I am hoping not too long as my period is about to start, and if I want to catch the next one for the Day 3 blood work it can't take that long to get in, right?? 

My doctor also asked if there was anything else, then went over all the stuff I said I'd do 3 years ago but didn't :-) like a pap test, and blood work, and a tetanus shot... so now I have to get all that done soon as well. I also asked about what I think is a hernia from my gallbladder removal, and he got me a requisition for an ultrasound. I booked that appointment already, and will do the rest when I get home. Well, the pap and tetanus any way. Blood work I just need to go in fasting, which I will do one day in August that kiddo goes to daycare. Since it's just "regular" blood work it will be testing for all the usual stuff like cholesterol and blood sugars, I am sure cholesterol will be high, and am praying the blood sugars are fine. I am considering doing low carb for a few weeks in preparation... but we'll see if I manage that! I know I need to take better care of myself in general, and am trying to do that, in small steps.

I was a little sad to see my weight, yet another good reason to do the low carb thing, but excited to hear the nurse say I'm half an inch taller than I thought. I suspect she was rounding?  Not sure! Any way. I know the fertility clinic will want me to try and lose weight, I am in the obese category. So I will be continuing to work on that. I know what to do, doing it is the hard part! I am going to get some extra vegetables on my way home from work today, and start with that. I know I need to give up coffee, but am planning to do that when I start my holidays, so one more week of the good stuff then I'll drop it, and switch to herbal teas and such.

I've been taking my CoQ10, and vitamins, just realized the vitamin I bought thinking it was a prenatal is not, so once it's gone I'll need a better one. I am taking another calcium/magnesium/zinc so that is covered, and a B-complex, so I am getting folic acid, but am sure I'm not getting enough iron and probably other things. I'll fix that once this bottle is gone, should only be a couple weeks. I suppose I could check the expiry date and if it's long enough I could put those away and get some prenatals for now, use the regular ones up later. I am debating adding in Maca, which I have sitting on a shelf and have used in protein shakes for breakfast, but I don't really like the taste of it. I also would like to add myo-inositol, but it's expensive! So that one has to wait for pay day. I think that covers everything though, for now any way!

Jackson has been doing well at daycare, he seems to be enjoying it more. And I am attempting to maintain my calm when he's tired and cranky. Just to remember that he is a kid. It is interesting, and I think I am doing well at times, then other times I feel like I've lost it. But I go back to how I felt in the middle of the night when he was almost 2 and he still wanted me to soothe him, it doesn't last! And it didn't last, and now some nights I miss those middle of the night rocking sessions with my baby. They do grow up so fast. I'm sure soon enough he won't want me to put him to bed at night and will want to do it on his own.

Sunday, July 17, 2016


We had a good weekend. Yesterday was very busy, we did more in the day than we normally would, but it was fun. Today was not as busy, we hung out at home for the morning, which let me get the laundry done, then went for a hike at the conservation area, then off to the splash pad where Jackson took awhile to get over the cold water, and then ended up soaked. He had fun and decided when it was time to go, which is always a bonus, when leaving is his idea. I hope next weekend lives up to the same experience, though we have no plans yet. I'm sure we'll come up with something. We really have one more weekend until vacation starts, two weeks of work. I'm sure we'll make it! Lots of fun field trips at daycare which is a bonus.

Still debating on what type of home to look at. Every time I think I've decided I'll change my mind. Of course I still need to get my new contract and all the money that comes with it in order to really buy anything. And honestly the place we rent is fine. It's more space than we need of course, and the back yard needs some work (like getting the fence fixed which the landlord is getting lots of quotes to do). I could do more here, and I know we need to get rid of some "stuff" that has collected. It's 3 bedrooms, one of which we don't really use. My parents did stay with us when they had their dog but they now stay with my sister because I have 3 cats and they say they are allergic.

I guess the next few months will help decide if I need 3 bedrooms. Though I think even if I have another child they can share a room. Perhaps it will be awkward when Jackson gets older, but I can always look at moving up then, in 7 or 8 years? Perhaps. I did make an appointment with my family doctor to get a referral. That appointment is Monday the 25th. It was the first one at a late enough time I only need to miss 30 minutes of work and can make that up, or use some sick leave or something. I am not sure how long the referral will take.

My plan is to do up to 3 IUIs, medicated if necessary. But that will of course depend on the test results. I know that Ontario now has covered IVF, up to age 43 (I think) and it's a one shot deal. The clinic I will be going to has a waiting list for it, of course. I believe it's about 9 months from getting on the waiting list to getting to the starting stage. So it is perhaps an option. I'm just not sure if I want to go through that. But I guess I will see as I go along. I'm excited to (finally!) take the first step. I also hope to chat with some ladies with two (or more) at the next SMC get together in August. By then I will hopefully have had my first referral appointment and have gotten the blood work done.

I'm trying to keep up my yoga, and exercise, trying to eat well. That is often hard but I think I am making better choices. I am looking forward to my holidays though, to getting some extra sleep, to being able to relax a little bit. And also to cleaning, tossing stuff. Perhaps making this place a little more my own, even knowing I will hopefully be moving next summer.

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Kiddo is home

Well vacation is over :-)  He's home! I did not get nearly as much done as I wanted to but his room is reorganized and I think it looks good. He is happy to be home. He looked like he was going to cry when he saw me at the restaurant. He gave me a hug. He talked non-stop on the way home from there, except when he was close to falling asleep. Thankfully he did not fall asleep so that was good. He came back with two boxes of treats. Big boxes filled with Froot Loops, nutri grain bars, kool aid, freezies... and some cheese and radishes for me. He is now eating one of those freezies which are not quite frozen any more. But I guess they still taste good!

He seems to be in a good mood, I guess his sleep stores are replenished. He said that Nanny taught him it is good to pick up one type of toys before bringing out anther, and then to clean them all up at the end of the day before bed. You know, things I've been nagging after for years! But now he's going to do it because "everyone" agrees it's a good idea. Uh huh. We'll see how it lasts but I guess I'll cross my fingers!

I have a lot of cleaning and decluttering to do, especially since the houses I am looking at buying are smaller than this place, with a lot less room for boxes of stuff. Stuff I'm not quite sure about any more. We shall have to clean up the basement, which is a big project! There is a lot of stuff down there, it's where things get put when they aren't quite ready for the garbage but we don't really want them any more. I think some of the stuff down there will have to go in the garbage even if it isn't really garbage, I'm just not sure I can face trying to sell it or donate it.

The one place I think I've settled on buying is small, it's only two bedrooms. So I'm not sure it's really the best option if I want to have another baby. And there is no yard, but there is a balcony at least. I am terrible at yard work, I hate mowing the lawn, or gardening. I get big ideas but they fail to happen when I get overwhelmed by the actual steps. So I don't really want a yard, and if we are close to even a small park I think that would be enough. We barely use the yard we have here. Even when he had a play structure back there, he hardly used it. So it seems like a waste of money, $50K more at least to get a small yard, plus put a fence in. Ugh. I am looking at homes that are below what I think I'll be able to afford. I want to keep my mortgage etc as low as possible, so if that means buying something smaller I will probably do that. But I'm still wondering about schools, do I keep him here (and spend more on a home) to stay in the same school and daycare, or buy something cheaper, with a new school and hope we get a good before/after school situation. It's hard!

I haven't made it to the doctor yet but will at least in August, I have the time off and can send him to daycare at least for awhile so I can go during the day. It's hard to get evening or weekend appointments. Hopefully I'll be able to get the referral done, get the referral appointment and go for the blood work, before I go back to work. And hopefully my union finally signs a contract instead of talking about it (for 4 years now). That back pay will pay for a lot... even after they take half for taxes!

I'm happy my kid is home. TV has not yet been turned on. He's playing some toys. He made an aircraft carrier at my parents from some wood and cardboard. It is now a dock at the beach for his jet ski and kayak. I love his imagination. And his talking, it's non-stop. Certainly adds some noise! Hopefully I will be able to sleep better tonight now that he is home.

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

July colds

Kiddo is still at my parent's place. He isn't feeling very well, apparently he has quite the runny nose and wasn't eating much yesterday. They were supposed to go camping but once at the camp site he complained of feeling sick so they came home. I think it was probably a good thing as the weather was quite hot and humid where they were camping, and I doubt any sleep would have been had. My mom asked me what he likes when he is sick, and she is taking good care of him, of course! I mean she took good care of me when I was little and sick. I know he's fine, but of course I'm mama! I can't really go get him though, I'd have to miss some work and it's quite busy, and I know he's fine so there isn't really a reason to. Plus driving that far when sick is not likely very much fun. He seems to be doing better today, I'll get another update once he's asleep I'm sure!

Facebook has this feature that shows you what you posted on this day in previous years, apparently Jackson is sick quite often at this time of year! Weird right? It is pretty cool to see these things though. I notice a few trends in his illnesses, which for some reason I post about a lot.

I have not been doing as much as I had planned in terms of cleaning and organizing. I seem to be really good at procrastinating. Really good. I am hoping to get most of it done before he comes home, but realistically, I am not good at this. I want to rearrange his bedroom, and will do that on Saturday. I've got some books moved to the basement, and the old play doh is gone, but the rest of the toys... I don't really even know where to start! He has so many toys. I think I need help, but not sure how to do that either. I'm sure I'll get some of it done. I wish I had a full day off to work on it, evenings I am just tired from work and want to do nothing.

Speaking of work, I am replacing my director's executive assistance and it is a lot of fun. I really enjoy being involved in so much that is going on. There are some things I'm not as keen on, but overall this type of thing is great. Of course it helps that my director is pretty awesome, he knows his stuff and is on top of things, plus he's friendly, and he seems to enjoy his job. I do not think I ever want to be at that level though, he works a lot, I get emails on weekends, in the evening, he's obviously busy and I like to leave work at work.

I haven't been able to get to the doctor this week either! So now it will probably have to wait until August, when I am off, and can go when Jackson is at daycare. I'll make sure he spends some time there, he wants to go on the field trips any way. I guess it gives me more time to take my supplements, and keep up with the yoga (which I haven't done at all this week!). I haven't been sleeping well this week either, not sure if that is because kiddo is not here or what. I think I need new pillows or something. I had hoped to catch up on sleep a bit, but I guess not! Perhaps this weekend, since I won't go get him until Sunday.

Sunday, July 3, 2016

Long summer weekend

Wednesday was Jackson's last day of Grade 1. He was a bear that morning so I didn't get a last day of school picture, and it was a rough start to the day. It ended better than it began so that was nice. I took Thursday off so we could go down to my parent's for the long weekend. He stayed up late to watch the fire works, which he wasn't impressed by (too loud) and then was very grumpy Friday from not getting enough sleep.

Friday he watched the parade, and we got some ice cream. Then he played outside a lot, and was a bit over tired. It was a nice day though, and he was in bed and asleep early.  Yesterday we went to get him a sleeping bag for his big camping trip with my dad. We then went into town and had lunch, then went to Walmart. My parents bought me stuff (practical stuff, like dish washer soap and tissues). He was in a much better mood and played quite late outside. Had a bath and then was in bed and sleeping.

Today I came home! The cats are very happy to see me, Jackson was getting a little upset when I was leaving but I know he's fine. Apparently he hasn't stopped eating all day. He'd had two breakfasts before I left. I now have a week alone. I plan to clean up the toys, organize and store some. I'd also like to fix up the basement a bit so he can play down there some. Though he says he is too scared to play down there. We'll see I guess!

I plan to watch lots of netflix, and grown up tv (no cartoons!). I will also do some yoga, and hopefully a few good workouts as well. I wanted to go to the doctor to see about a referral, but I can't get an appointment after work so I'd need to take time off work, which I can't really do this week. But perhaps I can get to work early and leave early one day. I hate to wait until August for that step, then it will take that much longer to get to the testing.

One of the ladies in my local SMC group just had her second little boy. He first is 7, so around the same age Jackson would be. She fought long and hard for that second baby, something I'm not sure I'd do quite as much. I'm looking forward to the August get together, I think there will be a few mom's with more than one, and I plan to ask some questions! And hopefully by then I'll have some tests done and know where I stand.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Taking Back Childhood

I've been reading a lot of books lately, mostly from the library, on raising kids. One I just finished is Taking Back Childhood by Nancy Carlsson-Paige and it was very interesting. Highly recommended.  I found a lot of the advice to be very timely. I know that we have too much stuff, that Jackson likes to play with lots of different toys but often needs help figuring out what to do. He constantly wants more, which has been a fight lately as I keep saying we can't afford this or that. He is starting to notice brands, though thankfully not really in terms of clothes. I guess because I grew up with advertising, and brand toys, I didn't know that this was all different before. I remember getting a cabbage patch doll when they came out, how my mom waited in the store for the skid of toys to be brought out and grabbing two (one for me, one for my sister) and we got what we got and were glad to have one. I don't think that happens as much nowadays, but there are still toys he sees that he has to have, or thinks he has to any way.

The book talks about helping kids make sense of the world, keeping consumerism down, helping kids play more. I love that it gives examples, especially ways to talk to kids off different ages. I had previously read Peaceful Parent, Happy Kids, and find they work well together. It is about keeping myself calm and peaceful, and also keeping screen time down. The problem of course is that he loves his tv shows. I am glad that he still likes the shows aimed at younger kids, he isn't in to the super hero shows or some of the older kid stuff, yet. Still when he sees a commercial for a new toy he has to ask for it.

After our fight a few weeks ago, we have been having dinner together at the table, no tv on. I have been trying to encourage more play and less screen time as well. It is handy to turn it on and let him stare at the screen while I get stuff done (dishes, laundry, cooking, cleaning... heck even some rest myself!) but we are cutting it down. It has been hot this past week, and this weekend, so a little less time outside simply because it's so hot out in the sun. Our backyard has no shade, and if we bike or walk to the park we are both exhausted by the time we get there. We are trying, but it's hard for both of us I think. Hopefully this will improve over summer. Our backyard also has a rotten fence the landlord is going to get replaced, but until then I am worried it will fall over while we are out there, it will fall in the neighbours yard but you never know with these things.

When Jackson goes to my parents next week, and stays for a week without me, I will be home and hope to declutter a lot. I will have an awful lot of time so plan to box up more than half his current toys, put them away for another time, and face the fallout when he gets home. I want to go through his books and everything, games, videos, all of it. But I do not want to just get rid of stuff, so we'll have to be able to store some for a bit. And of course it isn't fair if I only consider his things, so I'll go through mine as well.

The book clearly showed how childhood has changed since I was a kid, how kids are so exposed to advertising and media now. I can see it in him, there are things he does and says that would never have happened when I was a child, and it isn't because I am letting him get away with things, I haven't taught him these things! I see it in the other kids he plays with, and perhaps he is less mature than others, but he is a kid and I will work to keep him one for as long as possible. They grow up fast enough as it is.

We are both looking forward to summer. Jackson has a week at my parents, then 3 weeks at daycare. Then I am off for August, and hopefully he will still go a few days a week to daycare but I also hope we will do some fun stuff around town together, even if that is going to a splash park or to the local pools. He has swimming lessons every day for two weeks at the start of August, hopefully he finally figures it out. Otherwise we have no real plans. Sadly my back pay won't be coming for awhile, they are going back to the table (and hopefully we are not going on strike) so we won't be going on any big trips for awhile.

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Father's Day

Jackson's school was getting ready for Father's Day and I guess he was asked where his father is, who it is. So he asked me if it was ok to tell people about his birth. I asked him what he meant and he couldn't really explain, but he couldn't tell me what he meant so I asked him to tell me what he would say. He said "My mom wanted a baby to she went up to a man and asked him for his seed... " And I kind of laughed because I was sure people would hear that and think I just found some guy in a bar or something. So we talked about how the seed came from a man who donated it, not just some random man. And he was ok with that.

This past week was the end of school fun fare, and we had preordered food for it. It was a lot of fun, with a teacup ride, a bouncy race, a tunnel slide obstacle course, and other candy/treats for sale. Jackson and I did the teacups once and I wouldn't spin it too much because I know he'd feel sick, and that I would too. He loved it of course. After dinner and a snow cone, he and two friends decided to go back on it. The other boys were spinning it around and I could see Jackson getting nauseous. One of the boys mom was with me, She and I yelled at her son to stop spinning it, which he did, but then the other boy took over so there was more yelling. Jackson was starting to cry. Apparently the other boy was saying "I don't care if you are sick or I am sick, I'm going to spin this!" He finally stopped the spinning, and eventually the ride stopped. Jackson was pretty upset. He went on the tunnel slide thing twice before they closed it for the night and we came home. It was a not great ending to the day.

When we got home he gave me my father's day present. It was some homemade cookies in a little box he made from Popsicle sticks, and a note.

I love my mom because she lets me do yoga with her.
I love my mom because she lets me have treats.
I love my mom because she lets me have oatmeal cookies and milk.
Love Jackson

He was very careful to change the Dad to Mom in the title, and he coloured me pink with longer hair so I would know it is me. So sweet and thoughtful. Though I'm confused by the oatmeal cookies and milk since I don't think he's ever asked for, or eaten, that. And the yoga thing, we did Tuesday night and he brought this home Wednesday. I guess he enjoyed it. We have done it once more since, but he didn't enjoy that one as much. He is fun to watch try though.

Today we went for a run, well I tried some jogging and he did some biking. It was good, but I am sore and tired now! I am very out of shape. Hopefully I'll get better. I plan to do it on the weekends with him, and hopefully twice a week after work, before I get him from daycare. The other days after work I hope to do some weights. With some better eating, I hope, I will be in better shape. 

We have no plans for actual Father's Day. We will call or message my dad, but otherwise there are no plans to celebrate. I had thought we might go see Finding Dory but Jackson doesn't want to go, so we'll wait a bit and see if he changes his mind about it. While we will celebrate my dad, we do not celebrate the donor, and I don't want stuff for me (though the note he did is adorable!). 

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

The rules and following through

After our big blow up on Saturday, with some new rules in place, the days have been a bit smoother. We still have some moments but it's only been a few days so an adjustment for both of us. I think he's surprised I've been following through. Yesterday the landlord was bringing some fence guys by to get a quote because the fence is falling over. They were to be here at 7:15, which is just before bedtime, so I knew it would be tricky. But I also know my son loves this stuff, and would want to be there. At 6:50 we came in from playing out front and he was mad at me for not letting him have a fruit roll up thing, so he called me stupid. That's one of the rules, no name calling, bad language, it means the TV get turned off. So I told him no TV. He cried! A lot. He tried to get the remotes so I put them on the fridge. He said he'd get them down, I said I'd remove the batteries. He then begged to watch Netflix instead, I told him that's still TV. So he hit me. And I took him up to get ready for bed. He got his teeth brushed and we read his story. He apologized and I told him he could come out with the men to see the fence, but right after would be bedtime with no play time. He said that was ok. I didn't want to have to fight for 10 minutes to keep him in his room and into bed. So it worked, mostly.

Tonight at bedtime he wanted to play with his toy, but we had discussed if he would play with his toy or have "talk about your day time" and he chose to chat. When he pulled out the toy I told him, nope. Keep it up and no TV tomorrow (which is mostly an empty threat since we'll be out all evening at the school for the end of year Fun Fare). He still didn't listen and so I said, ok none on Thursday either. He kept at it so I told him I was leaving the room and he was to go to sleep. He got upset and put the game away, then told me it was an accident, that he was trying to turn it off, not play with it... yeah that's what happened! I guess we'll see if I can stick with it over the next two nights.

I have started to exercise again, only 3 days in but I feel better about it. I get up early and do some cardio, do some weights/tonight when I get home from work, and yoga after kiddo is in bed. The yoga is only 10 minutes but it makes me feel good! The rest, we'll see. So far I'm getting a bit sore, which I guess is to be expected. I am also eating mostly better, though once I get groceries tomorrow that will improve a lot. I have a big list of veggies and things to pick up. I can't wait really.

Tonight we were talking about something, I don't even remember what, and he mentioned he thought I should "go to that bank" I got the "seed" from that made him so he can be a big brother... I had pretty much given up that dream, so I guess we'll see what happens. I am 41 now, and I was enjoying the thought of travelling, and getting a smaller home when we buy (hopefully next year!). But he doesn't want to travel any more, he doesn't like flying. We talked about how he would be in grade 7 when the baby would be starting school. Which is a big gap. Also for me, since I hope to retire at 55, I'm not sure I'd be able to do that with a 14 year old at home. That is crazy! Any way, more thinking required, I am not sure I can handle another child, some moments I wonder if I can handle the one I have! But of course we are together a lot with little to break that up, perhaps another person would be a good dynamic.

I am still enjoying reading the parenting books. One is talking about respecting the developmental stage of the child, which I try and do but sometimes it's hard, he just seems to be older than he is. I wonder if that is my fault, I talk to him like he is older than he is sometimes. He uses words that are bigger than I think he should. I guess it is my fault, he probably doesn't really understand the words all the time. He is smart, and he really wants to be "good" and not get into trouble. We are working on it, and I hope over the summer we'll have some revelations to improve our situation. Especially once we are on vacation in August.

Saturday, June 11, 2016


I am not sure if it's his age, or something else, but lately Jackson has been quite quick to anger, and it has me on edge, which makes me quick to anger as well. Even on our trip we both got angry at one another. I try to give him choices in things, but of course things like bedtime and going to school are non-negotiable. He has been using some bad words, and speaking in mean tones, I am used to him calling me stupid or an idiot if he doesn't get his way but it seems more and just beyond what I can tolerate. We had a big blow up today, I ended up carrying him to his room and holding the door closed while he banged on it and yelled at me from the other side.

It ended when I told him if his behaviour continues I will take action. And it ended in cuddles. It started when he asked me to fix a toy, I tried and it didn't work. He called the toy stupid, hit me, threw the toy, called me names, and tried to kick me. I told him the next time it happens the toy he's upset over will be going away. And if I hear it happens at school or daycare, any type of temper tantrum like that, no TV for the night. Which is honestly as much punishment for me as him.

I also told him he had to eat dinner with me at the table, which caused another melt down. He likes to eat in front of the tv. I like to read while I'm eating. Neither are good habits of course, but I've always liked to read while I'm eating. So it's hard for me to enforce something I don't really want to do. But I did it. For at least a few minutes and mouthfuls any way. We will stretch the time until he's at the table for the whole meal. I hope.

I have been trying not to yell. I try and follow Dr Laura Markham's Peaceful Parent, Happy Kids. But somedays... oh somedays I just lose it and yell. I can hear myself saying things to him that I know are not the right choice. I am sarcastic, and I do sometimes say things to him that he doesn't understand. I know I need to work on my own response. I think it is harder because there is no other adult here to step in, so if I am losing it, there is no backup, no way for me to escape. I have tried to walk away, he follows me.

I think I need to take better care of myself. I am trying, but it can be difficult to spend the energy on myself when it takes so much to keep us on track. I have not been getting up early enough to exercise, I know I need to. It makes me feel better and of course could help me lose some weight. I have been taking time after work, before I go get him from daycare. I feel guilty about it but he enjoys playing at the park with the other kids, they get outdoor time after school. He tends to not eat the daycare offered snack, so then is starving by the time I get him, and it takes longer to get dinner on the table. A whole hour extra I leave him there. And still when I pick him up he doesn't want to go. I guess that hurts. Well I know it does but it shouldn't? Why do the other kids run to their parents, happy to leave, and mine has a fuss and wants to stay. I must be doing this all wrong, maybe he's right and I am stupid.

Then later he will be loving and want cuddles and to be close to me. He doesn't want me to leave at bedtime, wants to talk then. I believe we are lacking some connection, I try and maintain it and build it but I guess I need to do more. I find it hard, I love my son of course! He is smart and funny, he is also very active, and wants to be with me and talking, all the time. I am a quieter person, I like to read and relax. I do things for him because I know he likes to. Like going to the park, I hate it, he loves it, we do it. And I also know I need to get that exercise back on track, when I am active I want to be active. How silly is that, yet that's the way it works.

So I am trying, trying to not yell, to walk away instead of losing my temper. I am going to get active, and focus on eating better, for both of us. And there will be consequences for his losing his temper with me. I am tired of being yelled at myself, and I do not like who I become when he treats me like that. I know he's 6, and he doesn't really understand, but if he doesn't learn it now, when will he?

I'm also reading, a lot. I got a few books from the library and have a few more ordered. All about conscious parenting, simplifying, and I am hoping it will all work out. One step requires getting rid of toys... Jackson has a lot of toys. Way too many. I know this. I find it frustrating and irritating. So while he goes to my parent's in July, I will be boxing up toys. I know he will be angry about it when he gets home. I am not throwing them out (except the broken ones or ones he has outgrown), so they will be in boxes or bins, stored away and to be exchanged with the ones I leave out. He can choose to swap them or I can to mix things up. I hope it will help keep the house clutter free. I will also be trying to declutter my own things, it's only fair after all.

Saturday, June 4, 2016

May 2016 Trip - part 2 Disney!

Since the cruise was only 4 nights I wanted to add on something extra. I managed to get a good deal through a travel agency for a few nights at Disney. We left from Port Canaveral for the cruise, so we had to fly to Orlando. We opted to stay at POP Century and get two day tickets, they came with a "fun bonus" which we could use at a water park or Disney Quest. I knew it would take awhile to get to Disney after the cruise, and the water parks close at 5 so I thought Disney Quest would be great. Jackson always wants to play video games, air hockey, and things like that. Since it's all included I thought he would have fun.

We got off the ship by 9:30 and through customs and onto our shuttle by 10:30, we were back at Orlando airport shortly after 11 and had to walk through the airport to get to our Disney Magic Express. I had done online check in so when we got to the hotel it was quick to get checked in. We got our magic bands, mine in purple and kiddo's in red. Our room was actually ready so we went to drop off our stuff and unpack, then back to the food court for lunch. Jackson had been talking about the mac and cheese since the last trip so of course wanted that, but it was not the same and he refused to eat it. I had a cheeseburger and fries, he ate my fries. If he had said he didn't like the mac and cheese I would have had that and given him the cheeseburger, but of course he first says he likes it, so I put mustard on the burger.

It was almost 1 by then, and we then went to catch the bus to Disney Springs. The wait for the bus was a bit long, but the ride was pretty quick. We got off and went in search of Disney Quest. We found it pretty easily, walking past a few stores, including the Candy Cauldron. We used our fun passes and then we were off to play!

Kiddo was worried that he wouldn't be any good at the games, and wasn't excited to try them. I got him to try a few and he started to have fun. We played air hockey, but I won (not on purpose) and he was upset so we moved on to other games. We tried a river rafting game, it was pretty fun, and we stayed a few hours. After playing lots of games, we left and stopped at the candy store. He got cotton candy, and an icing covered rice crispie square, which he did not like. We wandered over to the Disney toy store, and he got a set of 3 little buses, just the ones we took! We went back POP Century, and then swimming. We picked up dinner at the food court to eat in the room. He got a cheeseburger this time, and I had pizza with Cesar salad.

After swimming and dinner it was getting late, I knew around 9 we would be able to see some fireworks over the buildings, so we headed up to the store to get a snack, juice, water and of course another toy, then back to look at the fireworks. That was really the closest we got to them the whole trip! After we went back to the room, got into jammies to watch TV and kiddo fell asleep (as I knew he would).

Saturday morning we got up rather early, and got ready to head to Magic Kingdom. We had watched a lot of ride videos, and had fast passes for a few of the hard to get rides. We also had lunch reservations for Crystal Palace at 1 pm. We didn't feel like breakfast so I thought we'd get something in MK. Didn't really work out that well, we ended up with a smoothie and iced coffee at some point, then some waffle fries and water. We got to the park in time for the opening show, though we had to wait a bit, which kiddo was not good at. We got into the park and I said we'd head to Peter Pan, he said no way. So we ended up at Astro Orbiter. We also did the People Mover, and then the Tomorrowland Speedway. He did not like the car ride, he found it hard to stay on track and did not want help. After that we had our little snack and I suggested we go find some more rides. He wanted to leave. I managed to talk him into Dumbo and Barnstormer. He ended up loving both. I think after that we went to the Swiss Family Treehouse, and the Tom Sawyer Island. After that we stopped to buy me a hat, and him another toy, then we finally went for lunch. Lunch was good, expensive, but good. After that we left to the hotel again.

We swam, and had a little rest, then dinner, and he wanted to go back to the park. We got fast passess for Dumbo and Barnstormer, I switched some of the other ones we had and didn't use. So off we went back to the park! It was hot, and a lot of walking. We were there right before the parade but he didn't want to stay for it, so we ended up leaving right before that, and back to the hotel to sleep. A long tiring day with some frustration for me. I had expected to not get everything done but I was surprised by his reluctance to try many things. I think based on this we will wait until he is at least 9 to go back, perhaps by then he'll be more willing to try things.

Next morning we were going to Epcot. We stopped for breakfast this time, I had moved lunch up to 11:35 but wanted to get some food in him to hopefully help! While we were eating a little voice said "Is Jackson here?" And it was one of his friends from school! Can  you imagine? Huge hotel, and she was there at the same time we were. Crazy. He was quite happy to see the little girl, they chatted for a bit but we were off to different parks so that was it.

We had fastpasses for a few rides, including coveted Test Track, which he was super excited about, until we did the Tomorrowland ride. Now he had no interest. I was able to trick him into going on the Nemo ride, which he enjoyed once we were on it. Then we looked at all the fish in the aquariums, and the manatees. He enjoyed all of that. Afterwards he wanted to see the World Pavilion but since our lunch reservation was at 11:30 I talked him into seeing some other areas first. I can't really remember what we looked at but he wasn't too impressed. We ended up early to lunch, and were seated right at 11:30. Lunch was great to me, but he was not impressed with the food. He didn't eat that much, but he liked the spinning of the restaurant, and meeting Chip and Dale.

Jackson's been eaten by a shark!

After lunch we set out for the pavilions. We saw a few countries and did an Agent P quest. That was fun, and we got a pressed penny from doing it. We took a boat ride back from Morocco (I think) to near Canada, and then went back to the resort. We went swimming and relaxed, there was some thunder so the pools got closed for awhile, Jackson was not happy about that. I asked him if he wanted to go back to Epcot for dinner, we could go to one of the countries to eat. He wanted to have Chinese food, so we headed back around 5:30 and made our way to China. He had rice and plain chicken balls. I had some nice stir fry, and then we went to look around. They were just starting an acrobat performance and Jackson wanted to stay and watch. It was pretty neat, and he enjoyed the show.

Afterwards I wanted to get my niece a gift since she had stayed at our place to watch the cats, drove us to the airport and was going to pick us up as well. Jackson picked out some beaded earrings and a bracelet for her. I found him a little set of fossils which he loves. He is obsessed with dinosaurs and such, so this was perfect for him. After that I had managed to switch our Test Track fastpass to Illuminations! Great we'd be able to see some fireworks. It was getting close, so we stopped for some ice cream and then started walking to where I thought the FP area was. We got there and were waiting for them to let us all in when... boom! Flash!  huge thunder storm rolled in. It started to rain, and Jackson was freaking out about being outside in that weather, we hid under an awning outside a store for awhile, but they kept postponing the fireworks, and since he was getting quite upset, we decided to leave. We saw the fireworks when we got back to the hotel... not quite the same.

The next morning was check out day so I packed in the evening and got everything ready. He fell asleep while I was doing that, I managed to get everything packed back into our suitcases, and somewhat organized. We got up around 7 the next day, we had to meet the shuttle at 8:25, so if we wanted breakfast I knew we had to get up there fairly early.  We managed, and had toast for breakfast. I knew we'd eat at the airport so I thought that was enough.

We got the shuttle and were threw security and checked in by 9:30... it was crazy. Our flight left at 12:30, boarding started at noon. So we had lots of time. We had breakfast again at the Burger King, and I wish we had waited to eat until later. There is no service on Air Canada, well there is if you want to pay a lot for it. I had a can of chips but Jackson didn't like them, so he didn't eat anything on the plane. We had to change planes in Montreal, and the landing there was very rough. Jackson got sick, and then had to get changed. We ran through the airport to find our gate and it was down in the basement of the airport. There wasn't really anywhere to eat down there, other than a very expensive sit down restaurant, so he had some chips and juice. I felt bad but we had passed all the places to eat thinking there would be something near our gate!

We had to go outside to walk up the steps to our plane. Thankfully it was a very short hop, and we had an actual gate when we landed. My sister picked us up, apparently my niece was concerned about how to find us at the airport, where to wait, etc. We got home, and Jackson just wanted to play with his toys. He had a quick snack and was in bed by 8. He went to school the next day, and I stayed home to do laundry.

The trip was good, but difficult at the same time. I want to go again but am not sure we'll go again in 2017, perhaps we'll wait another year. I'm not sure. I also want to buy a house (if we ever get a contract at work... and the back pay to go with that!) so we'll have to wait and see what comes our way.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Our 2016 Trip - part 1 the Cruise

We have been home for a few days. I needed some time to let this trip settle. It was a lot. We went on a 4-night Bahamas cruise then 3 nights at Walt Disney World. Over all, it was a good trip. We  had fun and it was lovely to be away. There were far more good parts than bad. But travelling was not as fun this time as our last trip. I feel very tired and didn't really relax much.

We flew down to Orlando the night before the cruise, our flight left at 1pm and we had to change plans in Newark. That was ok. Jackson does not like flying (or landing) and by the time we got to Orlando he was feeling a little sick. He did not throw up, thank goodness, but wasn't himself. We traveled just with carryons so no need to get bags, just called the shuttle and went to wait. Got to the hotel, it was nice, sufficient for one night any way! There was a McDonalds in walking distance so we went there for supper. They serve 24 hour breakfast and Jackson was excited to get a sausage egg mcmuffin. Which did not "taste right" and we were off to a great food start... He barely ate dinner but did drink his OJ. When we got back to the hotel he wanted to go swimming so we did that. The water was nice, no one else was out there, and we had a fun time. Breakfast was free so we went down and ate. He had a muffin. He tried a few other things, but didn't like anything. We took another muffin back to the room and watched some TV while I repacked a few things and got us ready to catch the shuttle to the cruise!

The shuttle was great, picked us up on time, had two other pick ups after us but we got to the ship in great time. Made our way through a few lines. We did get bumped to the quick line for check in, but still had to wait for our number to be called. We cruise with Royal Caribbean this time, on the newly refurbed Majesty of the Seas. The process was different than on Carnival, not sure why, but we got on eventually and went to get some lunch. The buffet was nice, Jackson had a hot dog and fries, tried some lemonade. I think I had a hamburger, they were close to the hot dogs and I didn't want to wander too far with our carry on bags and everything.

We signed Jackson up for the kids club, then were able to go to our room. Our bags weren't available yet but we had our swim suits in the carryons so we got changed and went to swim! They have life vests on the pool deck which was great. I took his puddle jumper of course, he's not able to swim on his own yet, but this meant we didn't have to grab something else when we went up to swim. Before the muster drill we went to get changed again, one bag had arrived and we met the room steward, he was nice. We asked him to separate the beds, which he did before dinner.

The muster drill was actually fun because there were dolphins jumping around beside the ship, it was pretty cool! Then we went up to the pool deck to get a drink and sit and watch the land fall away. It was pretty nice. He was very excited and yelling at people on the shore who were waving at the ship. It was pretty funny. After that we got ready for dinner, our second suit case had arrived, and we went to dinner! We were sat in a corner at a table for 4 but no other people came. There was a lady at the next table on her own, so we invited her to join us the next night. Which she did. She was pretty cool. She works on the ships making costumes and was very nice. Jackson liked having someone else to talk to.

He had steak for dinner 3 of the 4 nights, the other night he had mac n cheese, with french fries. He tried dessert the first night and didn't like it so didn't have it again until the last night when they had the sorbet he likes. I ate well, I can't remember everything but I did get my escargot once and ate seafood of some sort every night. The lady we ate with mentioned that she gets the cold fruit soup everyday in a glass, it's like a smoothie! So I tried that as well and it was nice and refreshing.  About an hour after dinner Jackson would say he was hungry so we'd go to the buffet. He'd have a cheeseburger, and I'd get a second dessert :-)  We ate well on the cruise! Breakfast he had bacon every day, I had a full breakfast. He ate some fruit. And lunch was at the buffet most days as well.

Our sea day was good, we went swimming twice. It was very hard to get him out of the pool, there was a lot of attitude and I ended up picking him up and dragging him away. He refused to go to the kids club, so I had no down time, which was a little much. But he fell asleep every night watching the TV and without complaint. So that was good! He tried rock climbing on the first day and I think he'd probably try again in another year or two. He got a medal and was quite proud of himself. He is not a daredevil by any means.

Almost at the first bell

We had two beach days, Nassau and Coco Cay. Both were great. He spent about 6 hours in the water in Nassau, but the day at Coco Cay was shorter. He got tired I think, and wanted to go back to the ship to eat lunch instead of eating the same food on the island. It was very fun, quite a bit of walking in flip flops, which was not comfortable. He got a lot of stuff in Nassau, that straw market, those ladies are good at selling to kids... and a mom who can't say no to that kid. 

Ready to swim!!

On our last night I packed up the bags and put them out in the hall way. We had a 9 am disembark time, which ended up being later. The shuttle was very crowded, and he couldn't sit beside me, but he had his own seat so it was ok. He fell asleep on the way back to the airport. We had to go there in order to get to the Magic Express. The shuttle was good, and quick. It was easy once we got to that point.

Over all the cruise part was lovely. I think another sea day at the end to relax a bit more would have been ideal, perhaps a 5 night cruise? If he'll agree to go again I may try that. I think I would pick either Carnival or RCL, both were more the same than different. I may lean towards Carnival simply because he preferred the kids club and it is a nice break for me. I have to say that the RCL ship was a little more kid friendly, with the splash area and the pools seemed bigger and more family friendly. There was no problem getting a chair on deck any day. I think it would come down to price and where the cruise is going. There are some ports I want to visit, many in fact, but we have time, we'll get there! I will note that I did not feel the ship move at all on Majesty, either we had really smooth seas or the captain/ship did a great job with the stabilizers. I saw some waves and felt nothing, anywhere on the ship. Neither of us was sea sick as we had been on Carnival. 

next... Disney.