Saturday, April 7, 2012

Twas the Night Before Easter

We are enjoying a nice long weekend at my parent's place.  So far it's going pretty well, there have been a couple meltdowns, and of course my parent's keep trying to force him to eat all his dinner.  My philosophy on eating has, from the beginning, been that he should eat when he is hungry, what he wants (from what I offer) and until he is done.  There are times when he hardly eats anything, and other times when he eats a lot.  I don't stress too much over it but my parent's certainly do.  They also throw out threats "if you don't eat you have to go to bed".  I wish they wouldn't do that of course, but what can I do?  I trust that he knows I'm the one he needs to listen to, it does make me worry about him spending time here with them in the summer when he's older.  We'll see what happens then. 

Tomorrow morning there will be some hidden Easter eggs to find, I brought what I thought was a reasonable amount of eggs, and chocolates to fill them, but of course my parent's bought a bunch more.  There is going to be way too much junk around.  I do believe he'll have fun finding all the eggs though.  Except he has a bit of a problem seeing things, you can be pointing at something and he'll just not see it.  Kind of funny, I'm not sure if it's a male thing, or because he's 2. 

Any way.  We are having a pretty good visit, he is a lot of fun and is enjoying the time with Nanny and Poppy.  I do miss my own bed, and my own home, and my stuff.  I'm sure my cats miss me too.  It is a good long weekend, but it will be nice to get back to normal too. 

Sunday, April 1, 2012

The Big Boy Bed

Jackson moved to a big boy bed, toddler bed really, a couple weeks ago.  He is doing quite well with it.  There have been a few missed naps because playing is too much fun, but generally he is doing well.  He has fallen out twice, landing on piles of pillows, but is pretty good at staying in bed, and behaving.  Generally though I do have a great kid. 

I am in the process of finding a twin sized bed for him.  I've been debating a few different ones and think I have settled on one from Ikea, it's pretty inexpensive, and low.  I abuy a house in the next year or so I don't know what size room he'll have then, but right now a twin would be about the biggest I can do in his little room, otherwise I'll have to figure something else out for when my parent's come to visit.  I believe he will quite enjoy the bigger bed, and I can then lie down with him if needed, to read stories or whatever.  He doesn't usually need me like that, I've had to rub his head or back a couple times in the new toddler bed (his crib converted), but he is an independent sort and will tell me to go away when he's had enough.  He also does that when his temper is showing, if I'm telling him to get out of the kitchen or not touch the hot oven, something he doesn't like me saying, he'll tell me to go away. 

My little boy is growing up, and such a light in my life.  Knock wood but we haven't experienced too much of the terrible twos, we have moments but it's usually when he's too tired or hungry.  And he's easy to sort out.  He hasn't had too many tantrums lately, he had a few more when he first started at the new daycare in September, but he was testing his boundaries and is much better now.  He does still have separation issues when I drop him off at daycare, he doesn't want me to leave, but almost as soon as I leave he is fine.  I know part of it is an act for my benefit, to see if he can make me stay with him, and part of it is because he likes one of the teachers better than the others and if it's not her at drop off he gets upset.  He is fine all day, and is doing quite well. 

He's learning to put on his own shoes, dress himself, working on the potty issues (he will not go on the potty at home but I'm patient for now), and learning a lot.  He is just very smart :-) He loves to sing, and learn new songs, he loves to dance and has a cute little booty shake he does to music he likes.  He loves his diggers, bulldozers, tractors, etc.  Obsessed with them really, we have more than a few Mighty machines DVD's, and he loves them all.  Garbage trucks and snowplows are two of his favourites.  He knows what all the different machines are, it's quite funny. 

He is really happy to be in his new bed, and to be a big boy. It makes me a little sad that he's so grown up, growing up so fast.  Time is just flying by, and I have moments when I think "just a three years ago I was getting pregnant" and now I have this little person in my life that I wouldn't change for anything, but wow is my life different than it was then.  I still spend too much money, and tend to be home a lot, but I am happy, and I wasn't really 3 years ago.  Life changes quickly, and I like where it is right now.  But I still want another baby, and still think that would make my family complete.  So we'll see how that goes.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Oh time change...

The time has changed, spring forward and all that crap.  Why we still do this I have no idea, it really messes up my kid, my pets, me!  The only benefit this morning was that Jackson's normally 6:30 wake up was suddenly really 7:30, which also left me feeling rushed all morning, like we were late everywhere we went.  We normally do our errands Saturday morning, leaving Sunday free to play and have a nice breakfast, but we had a birthday party to attend yesterday so that all got pushed to today.  For the first time at Walmart Jackson walked, didn't ride in the cart.  He's done it at the post office, which is in a drug store, but never at a big store before.  And he was really good.  I mean really. He held on to the cart and even in the toy section he paid attention to me and while he let go to walk down to look at the trucks, he didn't run off or anything.  I'm impressed with my little boy, I have a great kid (hopefully I'm still saying that after a few more trips lol).  He helped me put a few things in the cart, and then into the trunk when we got to the car.  But then he saw a puddle... and that was the only iffy bit, where he went to jump in it instead of listening to me.  But I grabbed his hand quickly and steered him away and back to the task at hand. So it was pretty good, I mean he is 2 and it is getting nice out, and he does love to jump and splash.

We stopped for McDonalds breakfast, he loves the burritos, and I got a mocha which was fabulous.  And then we came home, on the clock it was close to 11 but of course it wasn't really so he didn't want "lunch".  He did have a few bites of the burrito and then ate 4 clementines and then it was almost 1 and I took him  up for his nap.  Normally he goes down just after noon at daycare, and at home too for the most part... so that's what it really was to him.  Did he fall asleep?  Not quickly, it was almost 2 before he did.  Ach.  I will have to wake him up by 3:30 at the latest, which is still longer than he naps at daycare, but if he sleeps longer there is no way he'll go to sleep tonight, of course he isn't likely to any way... So I hate the time change. 

Spring is finally attempting to arrive though, the weather this weeks promises to be above 0 all week, and into the double digits even!  fabulous, and we'll be able to try out the new jogging stroller, though I'm not sure the ice/water will be gone enough for us to jog anywhere, we should be able to at least get out for a few walks, this afternoon for a start.  After I wake him up.  I'd love a nap myself but am trying not to do that as often. Not quite sure why...

The big trip this winter is still in planning, though I'm debating whether it's a good idea at all.  It's going to cost quite a bit of money, which could be better spent as the down payment on a house or on making a baby :-)  Jackson will only be 3 at the time, so he won't likely remember anything of the trip any way!  And of course there is the issue of what I want and what my sister wants.  Which are not as compatible as you might think.  So we'll see if it happens at all.  As one friend said, sometimes living on a budget sucks, but you have to look at what you really want.  I really want a house, and another baby.

The birthday party we were at was for a little girl who turned 2.  She has a little brother who is now 5 months old.  Jackson was quite taken with baby Cooper. And was talking about him this morning, and saying mommy has a baby Cooper too.  I have asked him a couple times if he would like a sibling, comparing it to a few of his daycare friends who are twins or who have older siblings he also knows at daycare.  He has always said no.  But today he said sure.  Yes I know, he's 2, he certainly doesn't understand, but it was something lol. 

The party ended later than it was supposed to, both their families are notoriously late for things, so Jackson was also quite tired by the time we got home, and having just had some cake and ice cream, was not really in the mood to go to bed.  That didn't help his overnight sleep too much, but he woke up at his normal time.  I hope the rest of this week goes well, it can take a few days to adjust to the time change and get back on track.  It will be interesting to see how it goes.  I think last year was easier because he was going to bed quite a bit earlier, so it was more adjusting him to a normal bed time.  This year will be different.  I'm hoping the fresh air, and a bath tonight, will help him sleep.  And a short'ish nap. 

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Planning a big trip

The other day I was talking to a friend at work about my "dream  board"  this is a big bristol board where I put photos and copies of things I want, or want to happen.  So I was adding my house, the one I found a floor plan for that I really like and is in my price range (when I get that far) and is going to be mine.  He asked what else is on there, well a picture of Disney with a kid having lots of fun, the car I want, a few other  things.  So 30 seconds later my phone badabings at me, I have a message. We finish or conversation and I check my message. It's my sister, she thinks we all should go to Disney this Christmas.  The 4 of them, my parents and me and Jackson.  Huh.  My friend, when I told him, said I should put winning the lottery on my board...

Now I'm in the process of figuring out if I can afford this.  How much will it cost? My parent's are retired so they are in charge of researching where to stay, my sister and I think we should rent a house with a pool as it would be cheaper than staying at Disney itself.  I'm sure we can find something with 4 bedrooms that would work for us.  Then the flight, we can fly direct from Ottawa to Orlando which is great, I'm hoping Jackson does well on the plane, and I do.  I haven't flown in a long time, and I was normally pretty good at it, never bothered me.  But I have a kid now and am much more aware of what can go wrong for some reason.  We also need to get passports.  I wonder what that will be like, getting his picture done?  I am hoping there are no issues with travelling with him, there is no father listed on the birth certificate so I don't think it will be an issue, I will of course take the birth certificate as well as the passport just in case.  I do not want any issues!

I think it will be a lot of fun. Of course it has made me have to change my baby 2 plans.  This cuts into the budget I was working on for that, and timing wise I don't want to be just after an IUI or first trimester and going on this trip.  So I will have to consider all of that. 

Now I'm off to put my head on a photo of someone winning the lottery and getting the giant cheque for $50 million... wish me luck ;-)

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Winter wear

Things are going pretty well in our little world.  Jackson and I have a good routine going, and he's growing so fast!  He loves to sing now and serenades me with ABC's, Baa baa Black Sheep, Twinkle Twinkle and a few others, it's very cute.  He is getting to be very vocal, and totally Canadian... he often adds eh to the end of sentences, and has quite the little personality.  We have a lot of fun together, and he is enjoyable.  He loves to play outside at daycare, and so he has started to wear out his winter wear... First it was the snow pants.  He wore the knees right out of them.  I was lucky and found another pair, on sale. Phew. But now it's mittens.  And there don't seem to be any left at the stores we shop in.  So I don't know what I'm supposed to do.  Sigh.  He has wonderful snowstoppers, they have long sleeves that go up under his coat, but apparently they prefer to use the regular mittens, which I had honestly only intended to be used in the not quite so cold and wet weather!  Big sigh.  I have a second pair of them here that we were going to use on walks and things, which of course we haven't really done this winter (mama does not like winter/cold) so I guess they are going to have to do... unless we find some tomorrow, I guess we'll have to stop at another store. 

I ordered a lovely bike trailer/jogging stroller yesterday that I can't wait to get.  I am going to do the couch to 5k again this spring, though in a shorter time frame as I think I am almost able to run a 5k.  I am looking forward to taking Jackson biking this summer, perhaps down to the river to have a picnic or something like that.  Course I haven't been on a bike in many years, but you never forget how to do it, do you?  I hope not lol.  The contraption holds up 77 lbs I believe, so he's got a ways to go, at just over 31 lbs now.  He is still growing of course, and my little giant still. 

It is kind of funny that I see commercials for little kids and toddlers and I feel like I've missed that, he just doesn't look like other toddlers to me and I'm not sure why that is.  He is still a little kid, I mean he still sleeps in a crib (he hasn't tried to get out and I have no intention of changing him til I have to!), he still has bottles at bed time... yeah yeah,  he likes them and they make things easier, so we do what works.  He still naps, love the 2 to 3 hour weekend naps :-)  and he still gets a big kick of such silly little things.  He loves to do things that make me smile and get excited, the first time he sang his ABC's all the way through with no help, he was so proud of himself.  He loves to make mommy proud.  And (knock wood) hasn't had too many toddler tantrums.  When he does, it's usually because he's tired or hungry, so correcting that, and his behaviour corrects too.  Perhaps this is my reward for his colic, and lack of sleeping through the night?  lol, I can wish right?

I was at a bridal shower on the weekend, two pregnant ladies and one 5 month old little boy... hormones were kicked into high gear lol. But I have my plan and that helps me to stick to it.  I am planning to go to my doctor this summer to see if I can get some baseline testing done, to start trying in November or so.  Part of it depends on what happens at work.  Our contract is renegotiated this fall, and there is a change coming that may bring me about $10k to put towards a house.  And I am hoping to be in a process for a promotion by April/May.  Both of those will mean I can buy a house in the new year, before a second baby would arrive.  And that is right on plan.  Add in the fact my credit is better than it was, and I will be going to the bank this summer as well, to talk about my savings and what I need to do to get a mortgage properly, and my RRSP, and possibly an RESP for Jackson.  All in all... things are pretty good so I am hoping to try later.  Though the longer I wait, the harder it is to consider having another baby.  I like our little life and is it right to bring another baby in to "mess it up"?  It will be extremely hard, and expensive, and is it fair?  but on the other hand, I don't want Jackson to be an only child if I can do anything about it.   So I will try, once I have the money, house and health stuff sorted out.

Health wise I have lost 20lbs this year so far, and am needing to lose another 24 to reach a "healthy" weight, and I'd like to lose another 20 on top of that, so 44 total.  Should be possible, before fall any way, hopefully sooner.  It is certainly liberating to be losing and able to buy smaller clothes and be comfortable in my own skin/body.  I still don't really see it in the mirrot though.  And of course Jackson doesn't even notice anything, even when I got abot 10 inches cut off my hair, he didn't notice at all... boys ;-)

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Work, credit and decisions

Work has taken an interesting turn. I went for an interview Friday for a position that would let me stay in the same building. I think it went ok, but since I can't travel or do overtime I may not be considered. I am not entirely sure I want to change jobs. I do like what I do for the most part, and like my manager, but am feeling stifled, I'd like a new challenge, and I don't think my boss will do that for me. So I'm not sure what to do. I'm also concerned because the new building is a bit further than where I am now. It will mean less time with my kid, which I don't like the thought of at all.


I am also a bit excited.  I have crappy credit, like the worst you could possibly have.  But I got a letter Thursday from my visa company telling me I qualify for an increase. Since my limit was like the lowest you could have, I accepted, with the intention of only using it when I have the money to pay it off.  But it makes me think my credit is better, better enough to maybe qualify for things like a real car lease/loan or possibly even a mortgage.  Not that I have the down payment yet of course, but it gives me hope. And makes me more likely to stick to my budget and get where I want to be.

Also makes the prospect of having another child interesting. I suddenly have a little buffer, money I can use if I really need to, even if it costs me a lot of interest in the end.  I am still thinking of trying in the fall, early winter.  I turn 37 soon, so would be 38 when I have that baby, that is quite a bit older than I was when I had Jackson, which may be an issue.  But I am working on my lose weight plan, and it's going quite well.  I am getting healthier, and am going to start jogging again in the spring, hoping to get a bike too.  Healthier, active, maybe able to buy a new house... things are looking good.  And I'm feeling good.

Well I would be if I didn't have this cold from hell, it seems Jackson and I have been sick pretty much since Christmas, I cannot wait for winter to be over! 

Monday, December 26, 2011

Lesson Learned

Merry Christmas!  Jackson and I had a great day.  My parents came to stay and we all went to my sister and her family's place for dinner.  It was very good, though she didn't do turkey.  Jackson was super excited when he came down the stairs and saw what Santa had left.  He was thrilled with the train set, and the kitchen Nanny & Poppy gave him, and the trampoline.  But I went a bit overboard.  He got bored of opening presents so it was a bit too much.  Next year I will know, just one or two toys lol.  It will save me some money too.  He definitely has enough toys now.  To last for years. 

I'm a bit tired, I could use a nap but my parent's are out for brunch and will be coming back to get their dog in a little while before they go home.  So tomorrow I guess I can nap.  Jackson is also tired, he still has a cold and it doesn't seem to be getting much better.  I hope that lots of rest this week will help him get healthier.  I also hope I don't have to take him to the doctor.  I do hate when he's sick, and when I'm sick, and when I can't really do anything to help him feel better.

I had thought to try some potty training while we're off but I'm not sure I'm up to it.  I will put him on when he asks, and we'll watch the Potty Time movie, but I won't be doing the putting him on the potty every 30 minutes or anything.  I will save that for summer if he's not done by then. 

And in baby news, I still would like another kid, and am patiently waiting to sort out the money stuff, and lose some weight, and figure it all out.  Or I'll get a puppy... I already have a dog and two cats, but a puppy might kill the baby wanting bug for a few months at least... maybe :-)